Project Gaga 2010 "So many tears, u make me whole little monsters. Without u, I would have no voice. Thank you :*("

It Is Time

I've been having some weird dreams lately, sheesh, at least whenever I do I sleep the best. Tis weird. So it's the home stretch for school. Exam week and the last for delta til next fall. Which will be epic. More epic than this semester. Which was amazing! Let's do a little recap.

So Math sucked, but that was to be expected. I just kept picturing how my first math class went. It was a small class upstairs for an hour and a half and everyone got along great. Not the case this time. Our class was in the basement of delta, which is my favorite spot to be, but not for math apparently. I wasn't able to talk to anybody, and the teacher was my age and only did a good job at making me feel stupid. I was lucky enough to know I wasn't the only one feeling that way at least. I didn't even take the final exam, I just slept in and relaxed. Fuck it.

Oh, biology, how I loved our times together. Never before had I imagined a better environment to learn about the ecosystem. I was blessed with an amazing professor and a great work group. I got along great with them and can say that I actually made friends! Although college friends are often short lived. I'm afraid if I saw them in the halls I'd just awkwardly walk by. Not to mention I'm passing! Not to be too surprised, I passed with flying colors in high school. That was also a class of the century (since I had Kristen, Amanda, Bastian, and Chelsea all in one setting).

Government was stupid. All we did was work out of our books then review it in class, watch a movie and take a quiz on it. I can honestly say I didn't learn crap. Maybe two terms, that have barely anything to do with the government. It's a hard three hours to sit through and there's no one to talk to and there's really nothing to talk about anyways. And British Literature was fine, although on the exam I made it seem like the class changed my life in some momentous way. It was interesting though. Of coarse there were those few girls who always have something to say about everything and talk and talk forever. I just want to throw my shoe at their heads.

Tonight after British literature I will be going out with Shannon since we can't get together on Friday now. Which is kinda a good thing since Friday was rather hectic anyhow. Should be a nice painful visit to the mall...

Runaway Train

So my step dad decided to crown himself King Asshole. Which really he was born with that role, so he doesn't have to do such stupid things to keep the throne. I don't want to get into too much detail right now though, seeing as I"m still pretty pissed from earlier. Today he attempted to kick me out of the house saying I was the reason Mom's having money problems. Never mind the fact that he was the one who bought the four guns for 900 bucks and the damn dog. When I brought that up he said it wasn't any of my business. And that if I moved out their lives would be so much better. How about he just dies and we all live in peace?

So tonight we'll have the epicness going on at my place. I'd sell tickets but I'm sure how long the show will last. My mom will probably just say she's tired of the fighting and go to bed. Seniors excuse for everything is that he's married to her. But i said "And for how long?" I doubt a smart woman would put up with him being like he is. All he's doing is holding her down. She works so hard and goes to school everyday because he doesn't do shit. She would have everything she wants if she would just dump his sorry ass.

As for school, its the home stretch! Next week is my last week! And, lucky me, it's full of extensive homework and tough exams. Which only gaga knows if I'll have time for. Friday (tomorrow) will be busy. Which I don't know if today's events will have an impact on tomorrow or not. But I'm going to back brownies, hang out with John and bring nicks fish tank home with all its goodies. It'll be a good day. My bed sounds pretty good right now. Too bad I can't go home.

This reminds me of one time in middle school when my step dad grounded me and really dug into me and after school I purposely missed my bus home and stayed at school doing nothing because I was too afraid to go home. Any place was better than home...

everybody please watch:

I'm going bi for asian girls

So my first few weeks of work are behind me. I'm living the American dream. Not so much but I'm almost there. It really took a toll on me at first. I'd be a dead pile of mush by time I'd get out, and I technically got over time my first two weeks working. So that'll be nice. I'm flagging right along and I've passed non fiction, DVD's, and CD's. On top of working like a mad man, school is getting tight with exams popping up and assignments kicking my ass. I'm fully aware of the fact that I'm probably failing math and that I haven't learned crap in my government class. My English teacher is pumping out the paper assignments and my bio teacher is trying her best to keep my self esteem above the surface of the water.

Johns been getting better at life, and working extra hard on the house it seems. I surprised him the other day by popping over unexpected and he seemed thrilled to have the extra company. I only stayed for maybe an hour or so but it seemed to lift his spirits. He admitted that he had wanted me to move in with him when the house was finished. He doesn't want to live in that big of a house by himself. "Who else would I have asked?" he kept saying. I said that I was moving out with Taylor and that there was basically no chance of me ever moving in with him. But if I had no other plans (like Taylor) I would have. I said that he'd have to stop the drugs and the beer parties though. I wouldn't want to live with that, and he actually said he'd would stop doing the drugs if that increases the chances, even a little.

I want to keep writing, but I gotta go to government and do homework while the teacher is talking. Also, I'm determined to get my bio paper finished by midnight. I'm relying on Taylor to get me the information I need first though. Totally understandable if he can't, but I need it to do the paper. I will win this war!