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Bring back my past hasn't been that difficult, in fact it's kind of a relief to have it back.

I'm stating again that I'm re-doing my closet room thing. I have some of my AOL cd's fastened to the wall and it's turning out really well. My packing skills surprise even myself as I managed to play tetris with my boxes and goodies in my smaller closet. I still have a ways to go; good news is that I've decided where the t.v. will go and that I might just bring home my PS2 from my dads house to hook up. That said, I still need another job. I tried to apply at Halloween Spirit, or Spirit Halloween but they want a resume and that's something that I haven't produced yet. Other than that, there's still the Double Tree Hotel as an option, and I'll be going around to get more apps. soon.

Since I seem to have an issue finding steady work (baby sitting isn't steady work) I've been helping my mom clean the house more than usual. The poor woman was crying telling me how she was basically tired of her life. She brought up that breast cancer comes back every five years (so it's known), and I think she's hoping it does, so she doesn't have to deal with anything anymore, but at the same time doesn't want to because she has her own children's futures to look forward to. R.J., and my children, Cody and Logan graduating high school and Nick finally getting through college (will he ever!?).

Which made me wonder what happened if my mom did, you know. For the past few weeks she's been telling me that when she dies we can sell her stuff, she won't care. A giant yard sale. But it's more deeper than just that. What about her husband? He doesn't own the house we live in, he can't afford it, and neither can Nick. What would happen? Where would I go? I would stay there for as long as I could. Seeing as I don't get kicked out and we can still live there. I can't afford an apartment and my dads house is too small and my rooms not even done yet. Nick could move in with Matt if his apartment was still vacant. Hm. Well, Alaina and I would be fucked. Not like she isn't fucked already, with everyone threatening to kick her out and even kill her. All the cats are in trouble, mostly with my mom's husband. Whom is being an ass to me (he must be reminiscing how he used to treat me with how he treats his grand kids living with us). Sam had the nerve to try and send me a friend request again. Last year I left him in the past permanently and the only reason he wants back is because it's football season and he knows he'll see me. Let it be awkward, it won't be the first time.

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