Nothings wrong really. So don't concern yourself with it. There's nothing you could do about it anyways. I originally started this blog so I had a spot to write my true thoughts. But then every time I wrote something, someone would be offended and bitch about it. Even when I've reminded you all twice before that I write what I want and for you all to read at your own risk. I've changed my yearning to do this for a while now. But guess what? I'm coming back, bitches. That's right, I'm going back to writing what I want. Thank you.I've figured it out, and I'm so proud of myself...Nick's always upset before and after he comes back from Matt's, why? Because of me. Matt still loves me, and that upsets Nick. Why? Because the more Matt loves me the more he hurts Kristina, and why does that effect Nick? Because he a sensitive person and doesn't like to see her hurt. Why? Because he has feelings for Kristina. He's mad at Matt for hurting her, mad at me for causing that pain, and, for some reason, always goes back to Matt's even though he's pissed at him. And every time Matt and Kristina go somewhere, Nick has to go to. Nick had said before that Matt had a met a girl and was CRAZY to have denied her. Well well well... way to go, Nick. That's going to be a mess when you come out with your feelings. Back to square one.
Every week the 24th looms closer and closer. It was always something that I've looked forward to, especially lately. But this morning the thought of Taylor and I finally being together like that made me twist in my seat and become uncomfortable. Why? Probably because of our argument last night that went more than two ways. One that I "tease" him all the time by wearing sweat pants. Never mind the fact that I didn't wear them for him, I wore them because it was my laundry day. I was also wearing a shirt I never wear under my vest. I get the feeling Taylor hates the fact that I wear clothing that will keep me warm. He does go to Western where I'm sure girls are wearing their mini skirts and short shorts. Track season is here after all. I'm not going to wear anything that puts my health at risk. Another way it went was that he just wanted to lay down but I paid too much attention to my new computer. Ya know, that he was helping me set up. Hell yeah, I was distracted by my computer. I don't normally get luxuries like that. Then Bre came over, like I knew that was going to happen. They come over a lot ever since Madison was born. Bre prevented us from being able to be alone and have us time. I like that time as much as the next person, but I didn't realize we had to have it all the time.
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