Foolish Games

Ugh, terrible. Absolutely terrible. Oh, the things that have been happening! Woe is me! Woe is you! Woe to everybody who has touched my fragile, broken, and mangled life! Woe to the evil that resides inside me! Woe to the gentle voice I so often ignore! Woe!

Well, clearly you can see my dilemma. Clearly something earth shattering has happened that has altered my state of mind. Actually, no. Nothing too earth shattering has happened that hasn't already been mentioned in my written journal. Karma is a beautiful thing, false or not. Deserved or not. What comes around goes around. What comes around leaves for a long time. What comes around leaves and hides and goes to the first to find it. I has a question: Now, I'm not planning to, but if I were to run away who would find me? I have a few people who have said that they wouldn't stop until they had found me. And how would they find me? Well, they'd follow their hearts of course! Because our hearts know the answer to everything! Right!? WRONG!

Our hearts don't know everything because they learn as we do. They learn from mistakes and grow strong after they had been weak. So on and so forth. Writing can be deadly, and yet I continue to do it. To put my words into something concrete so that later on they can be used against me. Especially my written journal.

ANYWAY. The point of this post today was to mention the rumor that as of late had been creating quite a fuss between Taylor and our so called ex-friends. Supposedly he had been cheating, nothing new there. It was more complicated than that though. Last June him and this Felisha girl (which I remember mentioning somewhere...) had a "thing" behind my back. Typical. And I forgave him for holding her and her hand (and the fact that I had caused him to want to kill himself and she was what made him stop) but the news I got the other day was that, back in June, he had went as far as to kiss her. This was new news to me. I probably would've had a harder time forgiving that (If I would've at all with the bite mark that was associated with it). So the rumor was actually that he had cheated on me back last year. What stumped me was that people were texting me asking if we were still dating because of what he's been doing in the here and now. Which would have nothing to do with last June even if it had been true. People were swearing it was true (even though they hadn't seen it with their own eyes. God must've told them or something). And then people were fumbling over their own words and stories were changing. When they said they had evidence all the 'evidence' they had was that they had seen it with their own eyes. Guess what people? That's not evidence! Dumb shits!

So now Zachs pissed at me for being pissed at him for helping to spread the lies. He says he didn't spread lies, why would he do that? Well by telling me that Taylor was cheating is helping to spread lies. He didn't ASK if he was, he just said he was and that it was true. Why? Because Victor told him. Well Victors a little bitch and Laura's a BIG bitch (pun intended). And Felisha's a jealous bitch who can't seem to get over the fact that Taylor was just pretending to like her (He'll argue that all day and night) so that he'd have friends.

I should probably tell Taylor that the reason he can't make guy friends is because of how he comes onto every girl he wants to be friends with, whether he knows it or not. Da boyz don't like it! Neither do I, quite frankly. But I'm starving (as usual) so I'm going to stop typing aimlessly and get a move on. I'm fighting the urge to buy a pop because I'm trying to save my money. A reminder to myself is that there's a soundtrack I'm interested in buying. Well I'll talk to myself later!