I say it louder

I don't know why this week feels so different but I feel stressed, over tired, over worked, irritable, under appreciated, not to mention that nothing is going my way. As if it ever did.
I feel like the life is draining out of me. I'm working my ass off to make sure my homework gets done on time and yet it still gets marked to hell and back. I haven't been truely happy for a while and I feel like I'm missing out on alot of stuff. For example: today was Midland Marching Showcase, and ofcoarse, as if on cue, my ride never showed. Hell, she never even turned on her phone. God knows that if I want to get to the football game this friday that I will have to hang out at the highschool when it gets out. My parents make it a lifestyle to undermind me and critisize everything I do. It was really dark outside but all I wanted to do was go for a walk in the cold breeze; clear my mind, if possible. I wouldn't though, I could feel my anger rising. I have trouble letting things go, if you haven't noticed.

I've felt this way before, it's nothing new. I just have to make sure that depression doesn't take over. My psychology teacher actually said I was a "ticking time bomb", oh yeah, that's nice to hear. Then the other day when I was leaving my math class, my teacher pointed at me and said, "good luck to you" and continued to help another student. Why me? Today Ben slid his notebook over to me and he had written: "Is something wrong?" and I actually wrote a response that was more like an essay. Do I give off a vibe that something is wrong? Guess it's not hard to look miserable when you're sitting in a lecture for three hours and then have to wait 50 minutes for the stupid ass Metro, where I'll once again have to deal with more people I don't know.

I pretty much want to bury myself alive right now.