Heaven

The first feeling of life I had was strange really. It seemed to come too simply, too easily. As if given as a gift. But, did I truly deserve one? A gift to me, the goddess who played a part in the destruction in the only thing she had ever known. Too simple. Too simple to wake up and feel safe, feel in comfort. To raise my head up off my pillow and smile at the morning sun. To walk across my warm bedroom floor and open the window, where the glowing warmth would create its own aura.
It was happening. I sat up in my bed; the brilliance from my window glided across the floor and caressed my body. I felt at ease. But most of all, I felt normal. Gentle laughing could be heard from the lower floor. The covers flew off me as I ran to the door and pressed my ear against it. I jumped when the door slowly opened. The sunshine followed the carpet as I slowly walked, listening to the commotion down below.
Peering over the railing, I saw them. My family. Laughing by the front door as if it was just another day. My light faded as I watched them. They all laughed and conversed as if nothing had ever happened. My father smiled lovingly at my mother, holding her hand. My mother. Sharona giggled happily as Matt tickled her and tossed her about. Matt.
The door opened and in walked my Grandfather, smiling holding up a gift basket with assorted snacks and wine coolers. It seemed as if none of them noticed me standing there at all. He held the door, waiting. I waited for Fluke to trot into the house, but she never came. My Grandfather looked outside, and then laughed as he held the door for his brunette wife. Sara. She held up more wine coolers and everyone cheered. Everyone cheered. Uncle John followed, carrying fireworks, Illegal no doubt. Everyone cheered.
My father announced for everyone to come into the kitchen to celebrate, they followed. All except Sara, who stood there smiling gently. Her eyes seemed to be in a daze. Her eyes slowly looked up to meet mine. I smiled back, silent. Sara slid her hands in her pockets, and kept smiling. She let out a small chuckle, and then walked onwards to the kitchen, where she had been called.
I stood there then. My feet grew warm as the light surrounded me again. I looked out the windows above the door and pondered on the past events. Pondered on what happened, and what to do next. Join my family? No, it didn’t seem right. I was rather confused, but chose not to ponder any longer. What happened, happened, it was no big deal. I was at peace. Nothing to be concerned about.
It will always have a notch in the back of my thoughts though. What did happen that day? That day with Camaris over the river and city? The glowing light and angel wings. The things we said and the feelings we ended up sharing. Was it all just a dream? Just another one of my crazy fantasies? Or is this...

Heaven.