Now angels are falling from your skies

I'm beginning to think that I'm quite possibly the most complicated person currently living on this planet (Earth). Maybe not person, per say, don't want to take too much credit, but maybe one of the most complicated girls. I want what every girl wants. Except I think the whole "Prince Charming" thing is a little cheesy. I want a guy (male) who respects, loves, cares and stays faithful to me. Not a simple thing to ask for. That's why I was glad when I found Taylor. He's all of that and more. But, I feel like I'm the one walking in a thick fog. I never know what goes on in his life, while I tell him about mine in complete detail, and I'm not sure if I'll ever understand his way of thinking. From my point of view it seems like he thinks he needs to be the ground God. He needs to make a difference in every females life, no matter what. He tells me things that I don't understand. He's ready to settle down (unlike normal males his age) but he feels the need to get close enough to girls that I think he's cheating. That's what he says. Then reasure me that he's not. I know he's not. The thought of him cheating hasn't occured to me...guilty conscience on his end? The only thought that I have thought was that he would leave me for someone he saw everyday, that his parents liked so that he could see her more often. I don't like the feeling of being threatened and the more he reasures me he's all good, the more reckless I feel. I want to take charge and tell him to change his ways, I can't exactly see a happy marriage with somebody who keeps running to girls houses at all hours of the night and day making them feel better while I'm trying to make children feel better.

Sure, this may just be a phase (that's what I keep telling myself) but I always plan my future now, and I need to know that it will be a dependable one. I've had to think about myself in the past several times, but I'm tired of that. I would like him to starting thinking about me, us maybe. I don't want to lose our life, because he keeps making everyone elses livable.