It's beginning to look alot like...January

I can't very easily express how happy I am that winter break is here. On the last day of my community course, I stood out in the hallway with Ben, he said "so, this is it, huh?" You see, Ben isn't going to Delta next semester; he's going to a place in Midland that is basically a branch of Delta. Probably better that way, since he's 40 minutes away from Delta. Ben reached down and hugged me, then reached over me to hug Cailey, our other groupie. Cailey's awesome. When we first met, she reminded me of a female version of Taylor. Then the more I got to know her, the more I found myself studying her, trying to become more like her. She was mature, responsible, a great writer, and very organized. Plus, she stuck up for me when my wit was on the slow side. Ben hated that, which made me like her more. And I recently found out that she had a baby when she was 17, and the father was a jackass. Go figure. Her daughters name is Amara, very pretty.

After the hugs, very unexpected, Ben said goodbye to Cailey, as she trotted away without a care. Then he pretty much demanded that I take his number, he said he knew that if he called me, I wouldn't answer, so he would wait until I called him. Like I had planned on it. He turned away, I yelled across the lobby to Darren, Bens other friend, and walked away, thankful that I wouldn't have to deal with Ben anymore. After that, I went and sold my last book, then proceeded to the library, where I sat, alone for several hours until Taylor rescued me.

Today, I went to school and the first thing I did was bought all my new books (although apparently I forgot somethings for my Astronomy class, I'll just go back after vacation and get my goods). Stood in line with over 100 pounds of literature in my arms (I thought they were going to break off), then sat with nick in the commons. At two, I went up to my math class, and immediatly started on my math exam. No problem, it was far easier than I thought it was going to be. As I turned it in, the teacher said she wanted to look it over, she showed me some problems I would have gotten wrong, than showed me how to correct them. She marked them right, and said I was going to pass that class. I still felt bad that I even had to be there. There was about 15 people in that class and we would all have to take two more math classes for them to even start counting toward our degrees. That means that I'm in a really low class. I thought about taking a math class in the summer time to catch up, but there's no way my sanity will be able to carry that. I'll already have two jobs to work and I need time for both Taylor, and I. It'll be a busy summer, but you can bet that Taylor and I will put our time to good use, if you catch my drift.

I just can't wait to go clothes shopping, and christmas shopping in a few days! I will finally have some new clothes, especially since my family doesn't think I need new ones and wouldn't help me out with it if I asked. My dad hasn't even gotten me a winter coat yet. Ironically, I'm the only one not getting sick.

Here's some good news: my hair's growing out. My hair grows fast so I knew I wouldn't have to wait too long for it to become fixable, and even the few centimeters is enough to turn my mood around. Once it reaches an acceptable length, I can call my hair dresser and beg her to fix my hair, and my self esteem.