Last night after the middle school band concert (and running into my 3rd grade teacher whom sat in front of us), something was wrong with my mom, don't ask me what, god knows. I noticed her eyes were watering while we were waiting for cody to return to the band room but nothing looked wrong. Then in the truck on the way home (I can always be stupid enough to make her laugh) she was really quiet even as Senior tried to make her laugh or at least find encouragement as he told tales about my mom going into labor with Cody and him getting from Auburn to Bay City in 7 minutes. She just kept looking out the window, seemed I was the only one who could sense the disturbance in the air. I heard her sniffle and wondered what exactly was wrong, but knew I would never know. Nick got sick, as always, so today Senior took me to school again. That was a nice awkward quiet ride. I hate when he tries to make me smile or laugh or see things from his point of view. He talks to me like I'm Codys age, then when I don't think he's the greatest man on earth, he assumes that I'm having a bad day or didn't sleep well. Nevermind the fact that I'm 18 and can't drive myself, nevermind the fact that I was up until 11pm talking to Nathan last night, nevermind the fact that I despise Seniors company, the cold weather, my clothes, hair, BEN, nevermind I had my psychology test today. Speaking of which, I think I may have passed...I dunno though. Only time will tell. Tomarrow I will buy my new school books and at some point soon I will go clothes shopping for something to boost my selfesteem.
I wonder if Taylor knows that there is a Kasper in the middle school band. 7th grade I think. Not entirely sure. I saw her name in the pamplet thing that I pretended to read several times, even the two blank pages in the back (which turned out to be my favorite pages).
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